Ok, blogger somehow lost the first blog I created, so hopefully, this one sticks. This is going to be mainly for those people I love that live in faraway places... Tia in Hawaii, Colleen and Nathaniel in Seoul, my family in Pheonix, Krissy in Alexandria...and also for my mental health, particularly when I don't have my journal.
Tonight when I was walking home, I had the thought that I am getting good at living without friends. That sounds really pathetic, but maybe it's good. Maybe at some point, unmarried people just learn how to live without friends and lovers and it's okay. I mean I find ways to keep myself busy, but I'm not engaging in deep friendships. That's different for me and I long for that in a way, but at the same time, I feel so socially awkward right now that I can't imagine forging a below-the-surface relationship.
Maybe I just need to chill out and do some serious God-searching. I know that when I focus on the right things, I have the most joy and yet my focus so often shifts to other things... like gobs. mmmm.... gobs.
In other news, the Steelers lost a preseason game last night. I was there. I'm starting to think I'm bad luck. They lost the last one I went to, too.