Thanksgiving observance

Thanksgiving was once my favorite holiday. But, yesterday seemed a bit hollow. I tried not to have high expectations, knowing ahead of time that it would be a small crowd, but I still seemed a bit disappointed for some reason. I think I figured out at least part of the reason, though. I want my own traditions. There is a big part of me that wants to stay home (as in my actual residence) and celebrate holidays there and create my own traditions. But, then I realize that doing so would involve a lot of sitting alone and staring at the walls (or more likely, my computer screen) and that would be disappointing, too, if not downright depressing. This being grown-up stuff is highly overrated.