Lone Friday Night

Do your emotions ever catch you by surprise? I spent this whole week tearing through work, keeping up with my school schedule and attempting to squeeze being a good friend in around the edges. I finally left work tonight at a decent time for the first time in a long time. I was so looking forward to spending the evening in my own apartment for once. So, you can imagine my surprise when I found myself welling up with tears halfway through dinner prep.

And, then all of a sudden, I realized that I was lonely. I finally allowed myself to be alone for the first time in about a week and had to face the fact that I am lonely. Of course, I'm not alone. I have incredible friends and a network of colleagues and family that would never allow me to say that. But, at the end of the day, I come home to my household.... and it's just me. I love living alone... I really do. Yet, I find myself wishing that I knew someone else would be coming home later.

But, for now, I need to find the green grass on this side of the fence. So, off to do finance and forget about it for a while!