Tonight, I went to a friend's birthday dinner and somewhat to my own surprise, had a great time. I've felt awkward at social events for a long time. But, tonight was great. To some extent, I was the life of the party and it felt good. I felt like I was back... the former version of me that has been hiding under awkward, sad, shell-shocked, and disappointed me. It felt so good to realize that I was the quick-witted, charming, self-confident version of me that I'd been missing for so long. And, it was good to just walk into a place without having to wipe my eyes, talk myself up, and take many deep breaths just to be able to face the room.
So, thank you. Thanks, Kim for having a birthday. Thanks, Raul for putting together the party. And, thanks to all the guys and girls sitting around me tonight who laughed at my jokes, riffed with me, and made my night fun.
I'm getting there... bit by bit... God is healing me, renewing the luster on my personality, and excavating my true soul.
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